Unknowing Long Distant?

So I'm sure I mentioned I had not seen Daniel in person for awhile. I figured we would hang out once we started going out. He forgot to mention a tiny detail he lives about an hour away now. What crap o-o I may add more later, but this keyboard is a pain and its slightly late.

Love forever and always,
~Bekki♥



I volenteered to help paint kids faces at this thing called Gator Fest. It was a cherity thing for suicide prevention and mental diseases. It was kinda personal to me if you know what I mean. Well thats me painting my evil little brothers face. Hes a bully.

Thoroughly Embaressed

I dumped Daniel today. He totally embaressed me Wednesday night. After he asked me out a couple of my friends looked him up on myspace because he does not go to school. How loverly it is to be told by your friends his myspace is covered in pictures of him and his girlfriend in whom he never left, and shes his number one friend. I'm not even in his top. I called him, left a voicemail dumping his sorry ass. He called back, I told him it was over. He asked if we could still be friends. NO WAY! I have a bs meter my friend, and you make it scream.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥



Hehe

The Difference Between Life and Death

This is an image that I have no edited to make it look pretty like I normaly do. You can obviously see its of Sarah and Kitty. Sarah is the living one and Kitty is the dead one. You can plainly see the difference. I would have used a picture of all of us but I can't seem to find on. But you see why we look so different now.



Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Pictures of me, dead as ever

Dead as ever, this is just a few snapshots of me.






And I am totally into photography. This is a picture I like that I took about two weeks ago.



Thats all.

Oh, and Daniel asked me out about half an hour to an hour ago. I said yes... This might end before it even begins though...

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

"It leaves your gums, slips down your tounge, and travels down right towards your lungs"

Emo Girls Are Hot!

I'm sick of people posting and generalizeing all emo girls. I'm very emo and very girl. And no one has ever fallen for me like guys posting on the internet do.

Quite frankly I've been dumped for being emo. Because I require attention due to the fact I'm suicidal. So yah. Make sure if your totally into "emo" girls your serious, not just because they're "hawt" cause that genteralization kinda of hurts. If you want a "hot emo" girlfriend so bad please make sure you plan on helping her through depression as well.

Me personally would love for a guy to give me a reason to live (hypothetically speaking). Because when I was alive, no one would step up to the plate.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Kitty Update

I'm almost worried about kids from school reading this o-o So yah, I might have to delete it or something. =/

Anyways Kitty and Sarah came over today ^^ so heres some pictures (none of me =/)











Hope you enjoy them =D Please don't steal them though <3

Love now and forever,
~Bekki♥

Cry me a river

Avril Lavigne is my hero o-o Just thought I'd mention that ^^ By the way, if you aren't already inlove with them. Black Veil Brides. The lead singer Andy Sixx is amazeingly hawt. As soon as I can Ima do a fan art of him and load it on here. If you haven't relized I have a picture of me on here. The banner is infact me =D Ben-Ben took it while I was walking so I played with it on a photo editing program =D

Anyways...

I'm ignoreing Randy =D Ima ignore him for a couple more weeks before I let up. He totally has been depressing me. And depression is the last thing I need at this point.

I'm dieing my hair black. I'm thinking of black (which will fade to dark brown) with some nice medium brown layers and highlights (which will fade slightly lighter). But I want to layer them in razor cuts to make the layers a little more blendy standing out though. Any ideas send me a picture or link =D I could really use the help. And I'm hopeing I can talk Kitty into comeing over to help me with my back. Its annoying me I can reach back there very well since death...

So this is a more lengthy post and I'm proud of it...

So Ima get back to that life I don't have :)

Love for now and always,
~Bekki♥

"Laying here
Alone I fear
Afraid of the dark
No one to claim
Alone again"