Things are getting better

I fell inlove with a guy in 7th grade. His name is Daniel (real name, cause nick names are for people I actually care if other people know). Many months ago me and Daniel got into a fight. Why you may say. Why, why, why. Why is the million dollar question. And I'm going to answer it. Basically he told me him and his girlfriend had broken up. And I didn't quite believe it was true. So I asked her. He got pissed at me for not trusting him. And we haven't talked since... Until tonight. We made up ^^. Its fantastic. Oh yess ♥ So thats it really. Hes my emo lovey bear. And I'll steal him from his girlfriend...eventually...

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Don't bug me about this post in anything but the comments below. I promise it won't kill you. ♥



Revised on August 29th, 2009 at 12: read below:

So instead of clearing what I already wrote or starting a new post I decided to shuve all this together since its on the same topic. Daniel. I could totally spend forever with him. But I'm not going to. He does have a girlfriend, even though he talks crap about her more then anyone else. But he will not leave her. Though I don't blame him, cause I'm not all that great =/ But point being. He is an unrealistic crush. Meaning its never going to happen. Because quite frankly hes on the dick-head side. Calling him that might have a little bit to do with the fact he called me last night. Told me he'd call me right back. And never did. Gee, thanks. As if my self esteem didn't suck already.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. I've got a crush on a guy at school :) His name is... We're gonna call him Bennie. ♥

Update on responses

Do not bug me in text messages, emails, IMs, myspace messages, or in person about my blog entrys. Unless its personal. Then you can email me. I do not want to discuss this in IMs though. Or myspace messages for that matter. You leave a comment if you want to say you like it or something, kay? It won't kill you I promise.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Kitchen

I'm no longer allowed to go into the kitchen unsupervised any longer. Funny story actually. I took a knife and dragged it down my leg v.v 7.5 inches long. About an inch deep at the deepest part. A little less then an inch of course. I was limping today at school. Many people would be whineing that it hurts. I see it as I'm recovering a little more. Enough to limp after getting hurt. For many of you who actually know me you'll probably yell at me later for not telling you =3 Sorry? I only told Randy anyways. I saw no reason to tell anyone else. But yah x3. I don;t really want to discuss why I did this. Because its very personal. Basically we'll just say I was depressed enough to do it, kay?

So my friend, to be called Aaron (best I could think of), thinks I have depression issues... Do I? I don't think I do. Actually I probably do. x3 But it makes me special, right?

Not really.

So I miss Tommy. If you don't remember who Tommy is you should probably scroll down. We haven't talked since August 8th. No I'm not one of those creep who counts the days. I just remember it cause he called me cause he knew he wouldn't be able to on my birthday. So yah. And it was the day after my first day of high school.

"And know that I don't hate you, and know that I don't want to fight you, and know I'll always love you. But right now I just don't..."

I dunno. I really like that song by Relient K. Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet. I also like Lollipop by Framing Hanley. And for you who automatically assume I'm talking about that... I think its Lil Waynes(?) version... I'm not. This is a much louder version <3 Of course I also absolutely adore Dave Days' version. Thats one of my goals in life (you know what I mean) by the way. To give DaveDays' a hug =3.

Cause I'm a nub like that!

Love for now and always,
~Bekki♥

You Belong With Me

Hey. I know like no one reads this. But Ima see if I can get this amazeingly talented guy more subscribers. Cause I love his song. I actually went through the bother of downloading them xD Cause I'm weird like this.

You Belong With Me (guy version) click here
His channel is here.

A close friend originaly linked me to him =D.

Actually the only reason I continued to watch his video is because he reminds me of an older version of my dear friend Kitty's little brother Cullen.

Naw, but it reminds me of Randy =3 Not that he would ever say anything like that, but hes the only one who really knows so much about me and all. Actually I got a new knife story to post later. Yah, I'm makeing up for my days gone =3

Love for now and always,
~Bekki♥

I'm sorry

I haven't had time to write up a lengthy good post. High school sooo sucks. And I really didn't want to have a short stupid one. So instead of just typeing up a short one I decided to say I'm sorry. I'll try to do on updateing you on Randy ;] We're getting super close <3>

Love for now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. If you want to hear my view on a specific topic email me at littleblackpanda@yahoo.com, kay?