A Quicky

No not sexual you pervert. Just a quick update.

My homecomeing dress :)



My new dress from Hott Topic :)



My Aaron <3



My new saying- "Smile like an idiot, live everday to its fullest, dream like tomorrow may never bother to come, and we can all live forever." -Bekki


New picture



Thats all for now.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Say whats that sound? Thats my heart beat, its getting much louder. My heart beat, its stronger then ever. I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive.

Dead-beat Homecoming

You are seeing the steady decrease in my posts!!!

But greatfully I've gotten emails from 4 new people who came across me on Google.

Google stalks me xD



God I'm cool xP

So yah, homecomeing is soon DD: I hate dances. I never get asked. And I always wish I do. I never get asked to dance. I can't dance. I can slow dance. But I can't dance normally. I bought my homecomeing dress, which I will upload later, its really pretty. I'm going to wear heals, without falling! Kittys my date! xD Just a little joke. Kitty'll probably get asked a few hundred times. Lucky. Yah, I'm jealous of her. :'(

I thought about asking Daniel if he would wanna come over here and be my date. I decided I'm to ashamed. Plus I think he got a girlfriend. So sad :/

Thats all cool though, you wanna know why? I'm dead. Nothing can hurt me now.

Thats a lie. Everything hurts me.

Love now and forever,
~Bekki♥

Dumb

I was thinking about writing a book. I think its a good idea. The edge to it I was thinking would be about a girl in highschools whoes a mute. Or dumb. But shes not really mute, but when she was little her mother had screamed at her after she witnessed her mother cheating on her father that she was dumb, she couldn't speek. And she was forever mute from the trama. She carrys around a notebook at school and scribbles down words when she wants to talk.

Yah, thats all I got. Any ideas email me.

littleblackpanda@yahoo.com

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Friends

I've been brainstorming for this blog since last exams. Yah, long time. Haven't got around to it...until now!

Duh duh da daaa!!!

I present to you my out look on so called "friends"

You reading this, yah, I don't care who you are or if this offends you. You are not my friend. I don't care if its Sarah or Kitty reading this. You guys aren't my friends either. Think about it. When was the last time you spent any time with me other then school. Not for a school project. That didn't really count. Times I've hung with Kitty and Sarah are...

Sarah: One time over here working on our bible project which was a fail. One time I purposely met her at the movies, she was with some party. Kitty was there too.

Kitty: One time over here working on out bible project. One time I went over to her house to study for a big science exam. And one time I ran into her and Sarah and the movies on purpose while they were there with some other friends. Oh, and crave (youth group) last year. But that kinda didn't count either. But yah.

So yah, they are my "school friends". Meaning we interact at school only.

So I guess thats it.

Damn it I thought I could squeeze alot more out of that.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Happy Halloween

Its halloween =D Yah, I've been looking forward to this all year. Then I relized I have no real friends o-o I guess I'll just walk around with my mom x.x FMD (f*ck my dead).

I'm being Cleopatra for Halloween ^^ I'll post a picture later tonight as well as another post I've been meaning to get around to. But now, my mother is yelling. So goodbye.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Yah, she threw a cup at me. F*ck her too.

Long time much?

Sorry sorry sorry sorry, I could type sorry a million times and you still would now know how truly apologetic I am. Oh, and before I forget a lovely man/boy/thing emailed me with words that made me smile. So I figured I put that out there. Thank you David you made my day. Or rather nights x3. So yah, school sucks. Especially since I can't get anything lower then a C or no phone and I think my mom would put me in lock down. Or a mental hospital ^^. So updates: Randy is an ass, I might like a guy named Jacob Cookie, Sarah is weird, I mean, er, I love Sarah? (=P you know its true, you love me too), Kitty is okayish, and I'm still lonely as ever. Me updates: I dyed my hair, I got new glasses, I found my ring, I figured out how to make these amazing little bracelets out of electric tape, and I hate this keyboard.

That's pretty much it.

Oh, and I have a research paper's rough draft due tomorrow... I haven't even started the body yet. Yah, epic fail, I know.





Yah, I'm amazing. Pshyah, I know. =/ Failage. Major failage.

Love now and always,
Bekki♥

Unknowing Long Distant?

So I'm sure I mentioned I had not seen Daniel in person for awhile. I figured we would hang out once we started going out. He forgot to mention a tiny detail he lives about an hour away now. What crap o-o I may add more later, but this keyboard is a pain and its slightly late.

Love forever and always,
~Bekki♥



I volenteered to help paint kids faces at this thing called Gator Fest. It was a cherity thing for suicide prevention and mental diseases. It was kinda personal to me if you know what I mean. Well thats me painting my evil little brothers face. Hes a bully.