Lara 01

Like, five days till Christmas. Yay, presents! :) So many people forget why this holiday is actually here. Yes, I am going to go religious on you; however, I am not going to "preach" at you. I am way too smart for that.

Christmas is the holiday to celebrate the Christ, or Jesus', birth. However, few realize Jesus was not born in December at all. Christians -and now others, but with different customs- celebrate Christmas in December because when times were very hard for certain religions as Christians there was a Roman holiday in December and everyone was already celebrating. So they used that holiday as a sort of front. Lovely, isn't it? How many of you actually knew that prior to me telling you. Shut up. Play dumb.

On the topic of presents, my daddy gave me my present early :)

Her name is Lara. Shes a kitty. Shes been hanging around Walmart's loading docks and warehouse :) Shes adoreable ♥. I'm not posting any pictures of her right now. But soon. I promise.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Tonight, I'll wait until I know you're fast asleep to poison you with memories of you and me. I pray you die slowly, so I can be the last thing you see. Oh you'll see.

Can you say _______?

I smiled at Kitty even though I didn't hear what they said. Everyone else was smiling, I can take a hint. Shes there, a new girl. Not new to the school. New to me. New to me hating her. Shes standing in his presence. Hes smirking at her. Hes looking her over. Hes never looked at me like that. I hate her. Shes handing him something. Telling him he has to put it on. I hear Sarah teasing him, but it all seems to distant to be real. Or maybe I'm the one whose not real. His face starts to tint red. I hate her. Shes flawless, shes perfect. She smiles at him sweetly, flirty. I hate her. He puts it on. A pink Santa's hat. He never does so much to look at me anymore. I hate her. Heather whispers something after she takes him back to the rest of their group. "Can you say whipped?" I hate her. I want to cry. But I can't cry. Even I know that. I put away the food I was trying to eat. I stopped imitating to breath. I sinked back in my chair as I slipped away back into my head. Back into my sub conscious. I still have him in my mind. I felt every time we held hands replay in my mind. Almost a year and I'm not yet over him. Can you say pathetic?

Ta-da.

A very detailed description of maybe two minutes at my class party. I should write a book.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Check out my new blog. I uploaded new pictures.

New Blog!

I made a new blog just for my works. Go check it out. Its called...

The Beauty in the Eyes of the Beholder

I hope I linked that right o-o

Love now and always,
~Bekki

Snow

The snow doesn't melt when it falls on me. I look deader then usual. I don't feel cold though the people around me are bundled up. My friend would occasionally lean over and brush the still frozen snow fakes from my hair and shoulders. People stare at me. People think I am strange. I am strange. I'm dead.

Sorry for that moment :) I just felt like writing differently. The frozen moment in time, if you do pardon my irony, is during my little brother's football team. It snowed in Louisiana. Isn't that wonderful :) Maybe we will have a white Christmas.

Speaking of Christmas go listen to Last Christmas by the amazeing band Busted. Comment what you think of them if you haven't already heard of them :)

Speaking of Christmas on a very off subject by that, I cut my hair. Heh. No pictures of it, but I do have a few new pictures for you dorks. They, however, will not be posted on this blog. I am haveing a new blog for just my creations. I don't know what the name of it will be yet so keep watch for it.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. I will still be posting here, I just want to have a blog just for creations and things.

New Moon

I saw New Moon today...

Not enough topless Jacob :(



To much drama crap :(



More topless Edward then I ever wanted to see >=O



Ugh, to much of Edward and Bella have mental sex >.>



All together to much of Bella and her man voice o-o



And am I the only person who thinks they need to higher a different actor to play Bella vampire then Bella human?

But overall I'm glad I saw it.

:)

And I'm working on a dorky outfit picture.

For now I have this.



And this.



Notice my eyes are drawn on xP

Love for now and always,
-Bekki♥

A Quicky

No not sexual you pervert. Just a quick update.

My homecomeing dress :)



My new dress from Hott Topic :)



My Aaron <3



My new saying- "Smile like an idiot, live everday to its fullest, dream like tomorrow may never bother to come, and we can all live forever." -Bekki


New picture



Thats all for now.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Say whats that sound? Thats my heart beat, its getting much louder. My heart beat, its stronger then ever. I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive.

Dead-beat Homecoming

You are seeing the steady decrease in my posts!!!

But greatfully I've gotten emails from 4 new people who came across me on Google.

Google stalks me xD



God I'm cool xP

So yah, homecomeing is soon DD: I hate dances. I never get asked. And I always wish I do. I never get asked to dance. I can't dance. I can slow dance. But I can't dance normally. I bought my homecomeing dress, which I will upload later, its really pretty. I'm going to wear heals, without falling! Kittys my date! xD Just a little joke. Kitty'll probably get asked a few hundred times. Lucky. Yah, I'm jealous of her. :'(

I thought about asking Daniel if he would wanna come over here and be my date. I decided I'm to ashamed. Plus I think he got a girlfriend. So sad :/

Thats all cool though, you wanna know why? I'm dead. Nothing can hurt me now.

Thats a lie. Everything hurts me.

Love now and forever,
~Bekki♥