A new year

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I think we should be getting to the point in our little relationship that I shouldn't have to say sorry. You should already know I am. Anyways, as an apology I'm going to show you my drawings. Because as you know I got a tablet for Christmas. And I got my friend to hack openCanvas so now I have a never ending free trial. xD



That's me :D



That's Lacey :D



That's me and Kitty's depiction of the Hatter and the White Rabbit. We're writing a sequel to Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass. Down the Rabbits Hole :D



That's our depiction of the Cheshire Cat (not finished though cause openCanvas is being a butt).



Another Cheshire Cat :D (I colored him but openCanvas is being a butt :/).

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Sur vived

I have survived today without being raped or torn in two...

Yea, I have a way with entering sentences xD

So today I hung out with my two friends Dylan and Brandon whom I have both known since third grade. I have no hung out with either for nearly a year though :( Sad, I know.

Brandon played violin with me in third grade. He was and still is a GIANT to every extent of the word. He called me small fry and teased me. It was a love hate relationship :) He has kinda sorta had a crush on me since then. Or it seems to be.

Dylan, I wasn't really friends with in third grade. I just knew him. I became sorta kinda friends with him in sixth grade when my first boyfriend evar (Tyler ♥ I still adore him) was one of his best friends as well as Brandon's. I had a little crush on him. Yea. I was a dork. In seventh grade when I switched to private schools and grew up a little he started likeing me to. We've been dateing on and off since then :/

So yah, I know what your thinking. My, oh my, Bekki, how on earth did you survive hanging out with these two together at once. Did you bring some friends? Did you cause a distracting? Did you act dead to make them repulsed? No! I did not of those I'm proud to say. Dylan and Brandon are friends, and dispite anything Dylan is or isn't he is always kind to his friends. He talked to me about Brandon likeing me and if I liked him. I told him no. Not for any particular reason other then I just don't like Brandon like that. And me and Brandon have very different views on relationships :) Nothing personal. Dylan did good. He didn't go overboard on PDA not that I thought he would. Yah we flirted, kinda. But more friendly then anything. Dylan and I, I think, will always have a little chemistry. And I know he'll always be around if I need a good friend. If anything from today, I've owned up to a whole new respect for Dylan. Yah, he can be a dick. Yes, he is a semi whore. But he really is a good friend.

So yea, we hung out at the park for awhile. Then when some little kids came, since Dylan and Brandon like to cuss and have in appropreate conversations, not that I mind, I asked if we could walk or something. We did. We walking around and talked for awhile. Ran into two or three of their friends. I politely waved looking as alive as possible. Then we desided to go to Monkey Hill. Yah, yah, I know. "Oh, Bekki. What is this Monkey Hill you speak of? Can we makeout there?" I'm adding in the last part to help my self confidence. No need for a hissy, Jesus. Monkey Hill is an area in this small woods by my house with a series of hills :). Then we walked over to a parkish area, from there we walked to this lake thing that was the cutest thing ever. I'll walk back there sometime and take pictures :)

So yah, I know what your thinking. Why on earth would two guys like you, Bekki. Your not even pretty. Well F you!

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

Your eyes are blue like the ocean, and baby I'm lost out at sea.

Lara 01

Like, five days till Christmas. Yay, presents! :) So many people forget why this holiday is actually here. Yes, I am going to go religious on you; however, I am not going to "preach" at you. I am way too smart for that.

Christmas is the holiday to celebrate the Christ, or Jesus', birth. However, few realize Jesus was not born in December at all. Christians -and now others, but with different customs- celebrate Christmas in December because when times were very hard for certain religions as Christians there was a Roman holiday in December and everyone was already celebrating. So they used that holiday as a sort of front. Lovely, isn't it? How many of you actually knew that prior to me telling you. Shut up. Play dumb.

On the topic of presents, my daddy gave me my present early :)

Her name is Lara. Shes a kitty. Shes been hanging around Walmart's loading docks and warehouse :) Shes adoreable ♥. I'm not posting any pictures of her right now. But soon. I promise.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Tonight, I'll wait until I know you're fast asleep to poison you with memories of you and me. I pray you die slowly, so I can be the last thing you see. Oh you'll see.

Can you say _______?

I smiled at Kitty even though I didn't hear what they said. Everyone else was smiling, I can take a hint. Shes there, a new girl. Not new to the school. New to me. New to me hating her. Shes standing in his presence. Hes smirking at her. Hes looking her over. Hes never looked at me like that. I hate her. Shes handing him something. Telling him he has to put it on. I hear Sarah teasing him, but it all seems to distant to be real. Or maybe I'm the one whose not real. His face starts to tint red. I hate her. Shes flawless, shes perfect. She smiles at him sweetly, flirty. I hate her. He puts it on. A pink Santa's hat. He never does so much to look at me anymore. I hate her. Heather whispers something after she takes him back to the rest of their group. "Can you say whipped?" I hate her. I want to cry. But I can't cry. Even I know that. I put away the food I was trying to eat. I stopped imitating to breath. I sinked back in my chair as I slipped away back into my head. Back into my sub conscious. I still have him in my mind. I felt every time we held hands replay in my mind. Almost a year and I'm not yet over him. Can you say pathetic?

Ta-da.

A very detailed description of maybe two minutes at my class party. I should write a book.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. Check out my new blog. I uploaded new pictures.

New Blog!

I made a new blog just for my works. Go check it out. Its called...

The Beauty in the Eyes of the Beholder

I hope I linked that right o-o

Love now and always,
~Bekki

Snow

The snow doesn't melt when it falls on me. I look deader then usual. I don't feel cold though the people around me are bundled up. My friend would occasionally lean over and brush the still frozen snow fakes from my hair and shoulders. People stare at me. People think I am strange. I am strange. I'm dead.

Sorry for that moment :) I just felt like writing differently. The frozen moment in time, if you do pardon my irony, is during my little brother's football team. It snowed in Louisiana. Isn't that wonderful :) Maybe we will have a white Christmas.

Speaking of Christmas go listen to Last Christmas by the amazeing band Busted. Comment what you think of them if you haven't already heard of them :)

Speaking of Christmas on a very off subject by that, I cut my hair. Heh. No pictures of it, but I do have a few new pictures for you dorks. They, however, will not be posted on this blog. I am haveing a new blog for just my creations. I don't know what the name of it will be yet so keep watch for it.

Love now and always,
~Bekki♥

P.S. I will still be posting here, I just want to have a blog just for creations and things.

New Moon

I saw New Moon today...

Not enough topless Jacob :(



To much drama crap :(



More topless Edward then I ever wanted to see >=O



Ugh, to much of Edward and Bella have mental sex >.>



All together to much of Bella and her man voice o-o



And am I the only person who thinks they need to higher a different actor to play Bella vampire then Bella human?

But overall I'm glad I saw it.

:)

And I'm working on a dorky outfit picture.

For now I have this.



And this.



Notice my eyes are drawn on xP

Love for now and always,
-Bekki♥